music for the ground hog in all of us

scary things in the night

I saw scary things last night
( in reverse order)

I was tired, it was nearing 1 am
I was 5 miles from home ( on a 300 mile round trip)
i was towing a trailer.
Two asses were in the road
Donkeys
Grey Burros

I braked, used half the other lane and went around them.

a half hour before that,
driving on the ice
i saw flashers ahead
three cars stopped
one of them stopped head first into
the berm of hard snow and ice
OUCH! I downshifted
kept on going slowly by them.
and was glad for my GNARLY studded snow tires.

but by far the scariest thing I will ever see is the creatures that prowl the aisles of WALMART at 11pm on a Friday night. Uggh I can not believe the disgusting things that pass for human beings any more. what a mess we have. how do these people come to be so hideous, so blank looking and so completely empty of any intelligent thought? My quick answer: Television programing and modern "music"

Jump through the hoop

i need to have blood tests to keep my prescription
(for Concerta 36 mg)
it is written by a general practicioner Dr.
(not a shrink)
so he is covering his rear.

I would hate to spend big bucks on a blood test
since I know I am healthy and will live forever
but I want MY MEDS!

fortunately
I have a LIFE Extension membership
( no health care, thank you anyway Hillary!)
and I get these tests cheap.
only trick, getting someone to draw my blood...
any volunteers?
I could go into the animal hospital, they are nice people, and like me.
I think they like me.

against all odds

i do not know HOW I am doing it
but I remain strong
and healthy
and keep my sanity
against all odds

the pain of fully living

There is something satisfying about the pain of life.
it is better than the dullness of being numb.
when I went to the dentist, the pain was useful
I asked for it, welcomed it because it was temporary, and we were doing something
that was good, but it hurt.


This pain hurts much deeper
and I dare not allow myself the conventional anesthetics available to me.
Today I will feel this fully that I may make good use of the hurt


Loss means you had something
I am now not sure what I had
but i feel the grief and mourning
I hate that I saw it coming and did nothing to get myself out of the way
Like a deer blinded with fear in the headlights of the coming car
I stayed too long, frozen, fearing to jump too soon or in the wrong direction.
My heart is road kill. Will someone pick it up and move it gently to the side of the road
so that at least it may feed the other forest scavengers
and be of some use.

me and my crew,

a tip for myself:
if you CAN skip a day of medication
you MIGHT sleep really deeply
and just catch up
on the rest you need

THankful
and looking for the STAR
of Christmas
( i am )