weird lyrics

to the person who would like to teach the world to sing in perfect harmony:
You are so controlling, I can not stand it!
What is with you, JUST CHILL, ok?

truly sick

sicko sick!
I just ordered something fro HSN dot com
and I feel so DiRtY!

please someone shun me!

Not cat like.

someone told a tale about me ( tail)
that I had Karate training
( that would be my brother, not me)
I break boards, yes, with a saw.
I toss logs around but not as a Scottish sport.
I lift a lot of weight, but have little use for
exercise equipment, I have endurance but will never run a 10k race.

I am not cat-like, nor like a Bull dog,
but if you push me, just enough,
I am like Sarah Palin's mother grizzly.
Mad as hell and not going to take it any longer!

Thank God for wisdom, restraint, and the Holy Spirit.

Slapping myself silly, or?

mind control, impulse control
important subjects for me recently.

a while back I came to a way of reprogramming myself
that involved slapping my face hard 3 or four times when I was thinking of repeating an old mistake ( mentally) or doing a potentially harmful action ( ie. driving by a place I did not need to go)
I made this deal with myself:
I will give you this gift of immediate and temporary facial pain so that you may avoid visiting the place of emotional pain over and over again.
it goes like this:
beginning of stupid thought or impulse
SLAP Slap slap!
Ouch, what was that for?
nevermind
HUh?
Never have that in your mind again!
oh, uh, OK!


Now I find a kinder gentler way or redirecting my mind around the negative emotions and caring for myself better. TAPPING
i learned about it from my devoted sister Laurel ( see her on Amazon)
who showed me Tapping.com
Here the video instruction is free, and yes it works for me.

God bless your journey, and if you are wearing out your hand on your face, try tapping instead.

big foot

Camera critters

annie, a five year old paint

Hello, Again

So David sent me an email asking me to post. "Oh yeah," I thought, "That blog!"

I haven't posted in some time on this blog, or my other blog, because of work and family. Both have required more and more of my time... And these are good things.

Here's why:

In early April I was approached by a former boss about a job at a startup company. Feeling that I had achieved all that I could at my former place of employment, I decided that this was the right opportunity at the right time, and I went for it.

And here I am, at this new job, in a new role with a new company, and doing very well. I'm focused on work, so much so that I forget that I have these blog things to serve as the occasional distraction.

Working for a startup can (and in this case does) require more attention. I've never considered myself a career-type. On the contrary, I am probably a little too cautious about the importance of being home from work early every night to be with my family. But this has some practical implications. It means that while I'm at work I need to work with focus and diligence to get the things that need to be done done before I call it a day. And this hasn't been a problem... I'm so happy to report that! In the past I would have never been confident enough to take on such a role. I would have doubted my ability to handle the workload. I would have doubted my ability to focus and get things done... I would have stayed at that other job, where things were easy enough that I could work despite my constant distractions.

Things are good.

And to add to the good news, baby #3 will be here in the summer!!!!