I grew up there - not in 1944

scamorama

too many scams out there
to try to bring commentary to them all
just do your homework
enter any product or infomercial name into google followed by the word scam
and schzaaaammm, you have easy access to what is wrong with:
Detoxing foot pads ( vineagar?)
Colon cleanser ( cat litter? ewwww!)
reverse mortgages
letters from a bank or Euro Lottery
bath tub refinishing
etc
etc

2996 never forget - Betty Ong

happy feet

i
i went to Laguna Beach for four great days
and my feet were naked!
I came home brown and guilt ridden.
Oh well, no vacation is perfect

if you have not watched Glenn Beck, today is the day
or a repeat of his 9-11 show

see I really AM crazy

It is beautiful in here

I love my mind
and my life and
the emotions that are flowing
through me these days.
the struggle was worth it.
This peak was worth going through all the valleys.
I am happy, full and content.

these are my people

From the Sheriff's log April 8th:

"Assault, Spruce Avenue, Sugarloaf.

Regarding a fight between father and daughter after she tried to get in the way of him and her husband who called the father a douche bag."

this is where I live people!

amy grant

YOU know people in Tennessee

The Nashville Area Chapter of the American Red Cross has opened two Murfreesboro shelters and sent 750 meals plus snacks, bottled water, blankets, toiletries and volunteers to assist with the operation.

The Red Cross will keep shelters open as long as needed, in addition to providing mobile feeding and mental health support to those affected by the storm, said spokeswoman Beth Ferguson.

She said the best way to help through their agency is to donate financially to the Heart of Tennessee chapter in Murfreesboro by calling 615-893-4272 or visiting www.midtnredcross.org.

oops I did it again

i forgot what the subject of this post was going to be

I will come back later
when and if I recall that glimpse of brilliance.

for me

for me, for the present and immediate future this is as close as I need to get to bliss. I have two therapists that work on me and on occassion I get to massage a friend.
It is such a blessing to have enough strength, information and the willingness to engage in this form of health care.
I use massage as a restorative and preventative means of achieving better overall mental and physical health. I recommend it to you.

cheep cheep - cluck cluck

I want chickens again
specifically baby chicks
which are coming to the feed store next week
I am not able to care for baby chicks
and do not have a long range plan to have egg laying pullets again
but I want to
which makes me crazy
which is why I posted this on a mental health blog.

If you read this pray
that I move toward sanity
and away from crazy
one step at a time.

cheep

I will put this here because my family rarely reads this.

it took me a long time to get my registration
and I ended up with a BRAND new license plate
with SHINY tags and a perfect piece of paper to back it all up.

Yesterday I went to get it smog tested, and then to the DMV
and so last night, driving across town at 11pm, when the roads are empty
a car (SUV) pulled a hard U turn and came up behind me.
I had a feeling who it was, but I felt safe, being all newly legal and such.
After stopping at a red light ( he hung back to read my plate) I took off nice and steady
hung the first right, and the first left into a parking lot and PRESTO
the lights came on.....

He said my driving evasively was suspicious.
I did not tell him that his driving made me nervous too
after all HE made a u
did not pull all the way to the limit line at the intersection
and ALSO made the quick right and immediate left into the
lot behind Vons.
I showed him my license and looked too sober for the time of night
so he chuckeld and ( after running my name) let me drive off, free.
two minutes later I saw him pull a U turn on another poor sap.
I guess he was looking for trouble.
I had none to offer, I was too tired

Dead man's party

In search of tranquility

i am not in a good place tonight
but this low spot is good because:
I caused it
I know it well
it does not last long
and there is a good reason
and a deep sadness that is at its root
nothing frivolous
or easily solved, or even mine to take care of
but sad, and difficult nevertheless.
It felt good to say it here.
I am sad, but tomorrow I will be happier.
somewhere there is a wild flower blooming
that needs me to appreciate it.
sparkling jewel in the desert,
I am on my way.

weird lyrics

to the person who would like to teach the world to sing in perfect harmony:
You are so controlling, I can not stand it!
What is with you, JUST CHILL, ok?

truly sick

sicko sick!
I just ordered something fro HSN dot com
and I feel so DiRtY!

please someone shun me!

Not cat like.

someone told a tale about me ( tail)
that I had Karate training
( that would be my brother, not me)
I break boards, yes, with a saw.
I toss logs around but not as a Scottish sport.
I lift a lot of weight, but have little use for
exercise equipment, I have endurance but will never run a 10k race.

I am not cat-like, nor like a Bull dog,
but if you push me, just enough,
I am like Sarah Palin's mother grizzly.
Mad as hell and not going to take it any longer!

Thank God for wisdom, restraint, and the Holy Spirit.

Slapping myself silly, or?

mind control, impulse control
important subjects for me recently.

a while back I came to a way of reprogramming myself
that involved slapping my face hard 3 or four times when I was thinking of repeating an old mistake ( mentally) or doing a potentially harmful action ( ie. driving by a place I did not need to go)
I made this deal with myself:
I will give you this gift of immediate and temporary facial pain so that you may avoid visiting the place of emotional pain over and over again.
it goes like this:
beginning of stupid thought or impulse
SLAP Slap slap!
Ouch, what was that for?
nevermind
HUh?
Never have that in your mind again!
oh, uh, OK!


Now I find a kinder gentler way or redirecting my mind around the negative emotions and caring for myself better. TAPPING
i learned about it from my devoted sister Laurel ( see her on Amazon)
who showed me Tapping.com
Here the video instruction is free, and yes it works for me.

God bless your journey, and if you are wearing out your hand on your face, try tapping instead.

big foot

Camera critters

annie, a five year old paint

Hello, Again

So David sent me an email asking me to post. "Oh yeah," I thought, "That blog!"

I haven't posted in some time on this blog, or my other blog, because of work and family. Both have required more and more of my time... And these are good things.

Here's why:

In early April I was approached by a former boss about a job at a startup company. Feeling that I had achieved all that I could at my former place of employment, I decided that this was the right opportunity at the right time, and I went for it.

And here I am, at this new job, in a new role with a new company, and doing very well. I'm focused on work, so much so that I forget that I have these blog things to serve as the occasional distraction.

Working for a startup can (and in this case does) require more attention. I've never considered myself a career-type. On the contrary, I am probably a little too cautious about the importance of being home from work early every night to be with my family. But this has some practical implications. It means that while I'm at work I need to work with focus and diligence to get the things that need to be done done before I call it a day. And this hasn't been a problem... I'm so happy to report that! In the past I would have never been confident enough to take on such a role. I would have doubted my ability to handle the workload. I would have doubted my ability to focus and get things done... I would have stayed at that other job, where things were easy enough that I could work despite my constant distractions.

Things are good.

And to add to the good news, baby #3 will be here in the summer!!!!

Prodigal son, give yourself 8 mins, for God's sake!

My mind swirls

book's we needed when we were young:
DR AMEN, Identifying and Healing the Six types of ADD

and Delivered from Distraction in it Hallowell and Ratey embrace the idea that success in life comes more from playing to your strengths than overcoming your weaknesses.

This is the follow up to the one single book that changed my mental health
Driven to Distraction by the same author

I know this post looks like crap
so deal with it, ok? Just get the books for someone you love
Change a life, even if it is only YOURS!

Bird brain?
No longer

Not me baby!

I am playing brain strengthening games at GAMES FOR THE BRAIN